Actually, that time I not sure you can felt it or not? I don't feel like to served you, but no choice, caused I'm a junior at my fair stall and just I can speak frequently in english compared than my another senior, and you are my customer. If I said that I can't felt your good opinion to me, that must be a big lies I ever spoke... since I'm person so sensitive. Before you left, you asked me that my contact number and keep message with me.
Since that after, I more knew about you. Actually you just a people too over confidence to yourself only... I started to change my opinion to you slow by slow. Maybe time can change one people feeling, I started to have good opinion to you too. That year, we still so young. you're 19, and I'm 21. That time, I so confused about my felt...we are different of age, education background and place of stay so, it prevent I step in front to you.
Then, I think that how about if we just be a friend? This is also not a bad things so. I guess time will make you forget me, caused we are still young, you and I still have much of choice. I keep my think likes that until...happened one things make I regret forever. Then, might arranged by god, I left my company and go to another area continued work and you also further study. My phone number change even so.
Stories happened likes a drama, both of us have our own partner, then facebook is a tools to connect each other. But I felt very happy about that,becaused I hope you happy, no matter I will be there or not... I give up, because I hope you not burden.
After 2 year...
I still remember that day is your birthday... Every year likes what I will do, wrote down the birthday greets to you facebook wall. When I scroll down to watch all blessed given by your friends make me found a very sadness news..
Most of your friends hope you rest peace at paradise...I shocked and followed your posted to read about your conditions... I discovered that...you already pass away 2 years already…
but I didn't knew it at all...
Way you choice to left everyone your beloved were break our heart... I listened sound of my heartbreak...and felt sorry....:'(
I never standby there and listened to you when you need a listener... I never caring you... I have no qualified to be your friend even...
I ever chat with your girlfriend...she told me:"maybe I do not enough well..." After listened her words, I ever think if that day...I'm the people who stand besides of you...is this everything will different?
If I can ignore another people different sight...are you still alive? I know I cannot change you...but at least I can give your some advice...to make you believed hope one more time...no matter how, breakdown will coming after darkness...
As a friend...I'm a loser... Do you know? I really very regret...and miss you so much...... Why people started to learned cherish after their lose? :'( No matter how I regret with it, I can't go back to that moment anymore...it's too late...
I...really can't forget you...my "friend"… I felt so satire to myself...I look down effect of you in my heart, memory likes a flood...lost control in every thinking...all about you memory very clearly reflect in my mind...until my tears came out initiative...
After 3 months...
Finally, I tidy my emotions, I know I cannot forget you...I decided to put you at the corner of my heart and I only can do that. Do you know? You never left therefore...:')
In my left sides of position...
Nobody can instead you...
I Love You...
